That which doesn't kill me only makes me stronger!

Music: Broken Social Scene "Looks just like the Sun"

I just finished filming about an hour ago. I have found love at last. I love what I am doing and I can't imagine doing anything else now, ever. This is my focus. I have to do this for the rest of my life and from this point on all I am doing is focusing on making this into a full blown career. I have really impressed myself the last few months with my strength, my will power, my ability to pull through anything. Things that used to really embarrass me are hillarious to me now. For example while we were filming today I had a litte to much coffee and if you know me very well you know that I pee like a million times a day. Well I had to poo so I did and then the toilet wouldn't flush because there was no water in the tank. I know it seems like I talk about poo all the time. I knew we were going to be filming the shower scene in there so I did'nt want it to stink or somebody to open the lid. I went and asked one of the P.A's to help me out so she filled up this big trash can with water and I had to go dump it in the tank to make it flush meanwhile the director is sitting there wondering what the hell is taking me so long. Talk about being embarrassed! I just laughed it off. I also got pulled over by a cop on the way to Augusta for speeding in my RED car and he gave me 4 tickets. One for no registration,proof of insurance,improper display of tags,and then speeding. I was going 70 in a 60. I have to go to court on the 14th. Hopefully it will be dismissed if I show proof of everything. So anyway things are good and I'm happy at this moment. I'm ready to go enjoy my 4th of July!!!! I would like to leave you with a few words to my new theme song. For anyone who has ever caused me Pain! I want to Thank You!


After all you put me through
You'd think I'd dispise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
'Cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff, time is up
'cause I've Had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do,
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter



Never saw it coming,
All of your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realized your game
I heard you're going round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes your wanting to HURT me
But that won't work anymore, no more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I know
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU WON'T STOP ME

I am a fighter and I (fighter and I)
I ain't gon stop (I ain't gon stop)
There is no turning back
I'VE HAD ENOUGH

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter